Ugh. Taxes.

Today, I finally got around to filing our taxes. We typically have our taxes filed by now - in years past, as soon as I got our W-2s and all appropriate forms, I filed. But because J's old job didn't send his W-2 to the right address, it was delayed a good two weeks. It FINALLY arrive yesterday, and we started filing tonight.

Last weekend, I put in the information I had, then finished it off tonight. Most years, I'm totally cool with filing taxes, but this year...it's just annoying. Checking numbers, filling everything in...it's just monotonous work that has left me bored this year. I actually quit filing and will finish tomorrow. Maybe.

Maybe it's because we had more forms this year to pull information from, or that adding the military component made filing a little more difficult...I don't know. All I know is, I have a distaste this year for filing taxes, but I'm not paying someone else $100+ to file them for me when it's pretty easy to do it by myself. If we had more assets, I'd probably entrust it to someone else - but it's pretty easy for us at this point, so I'll just keep doing it and grumble about it softly. I will say that our refund surprised me, and we're getting back more than anticipated. Hellooooooooooo new phone for J [finally].

Speaking of J, I'm going to go visit! After spending a few days debating about it, I decided to go out to see him for our anniversary. I'll be out there for three days/four nights and might go back out in July if he can't come back this way after his major tests are done. I am SO excited to go see him - last time I saw him was November 1st. And, we'll actually get to celebrate our anniversary together this year, which will be really nice. I can't believe we've been married almost two years. Wow. Also, I'm really excited to be going to Colorado for the first time ever. It'll be awesome to explore our new home, meet all these people he keeps talking about and get my mom's box of See's candy. Mmm. Chocolate.

And my ending note for this post: I feel like I'm in a funk. Or a rut. Something. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of life right now and not enjoying it as much as I have. Not quite sure why...maybe I need a vacation? Something to refocus on? A babysitter a couple of times a week to get my life back? *shrug* I think I'll figure it out soon enough.

My insecurities will NOT get the best of me.

Over the weekend, J got orders. He wound up getting them switched during the week, so our original orders have changed.

Sometime within the next year, I'll be moving to Colorado.

I'm still really nervous about it...I'm not sure it's sunk in all the way yet (although I've already started making plans, looking at housing etc.). I've lived in Oklahoma for a very long time now and pretty much grew up here. My family's still here, my alma mater's here, my hometown is here...and we'll be moving 10 hours away. I haven't lived more than 2 hours away from them ever, so this will be a huge change for me.

I don't do well with change. I get really anxious about change - to the point to where I've made myself sick over it in the past. Change brings out all the insecurities in me - will I make new friends? How will I adjust? How long will I be there? How will the homesickness be for me? Will I get used to the Air Force life? How much will our lives change when we move? Will I find a job? Get base housing? My mind is spinning in a million different directions about this upcoming move - and I'm probably not leaving for a few more months, at least.

Besides getting married and becoming a mom, this will be one of the biggest changes in my life. I've been looking forward to this move, because it means that J and I will finally, FINALLY live under the same roof and get to start our lives as a married couple with a young child. This long-distance relationship stuff is old; I'm ready to wake up in his arms, come home to him, make dinner for him. The big move is really making me nervous though.

J will report before JJ and I do, and we're still working out all the kinks since we JUST got orders. I just hope that this move will be a smooth one and the one that our family has needed for quite some time. When I push past my insecurities, I'm really excited about this move. I love snow, I've always wanted to go to Colorado, we'll be living near a really populated area, the base seems nice...I feel like this will be a good change for us. Getting to that change - for me, at least - will be the hard part.