I finally have new ones that I've started...I'm so excited. :)
The first one on the list, #6, was to go on a date night every month for a year with J. We had our first date night [in a long time, i must say] this past Friday - we went to the Thunder-Bucks game together. Because the game got moved from 6:00 to 8:30 [stupid tv schedule, but it was cool the thunder got some national tv time], my parents didn't want to go, so J and I went. We invited his best friend, but he had an emergency to tend to and didn't make it...so it was just us. It was so nice - we'd never been to an NBA game together before, and it was awesome for us to just go without baby. During Christmas break, we're going to do dinner and a movie for our second date night...I'm too excited.
Things are going better with us now...I'm just getting anxious about this whole Air Force thing. I'm probably going to meet with his recruiter during Christmas break to get some final questions answered, see if we can find out when he's leaving for basic and tie up whatever loose ends we need to tie up. I'm anxious and excited for this to start, but I'm also nervous and afraid about what life changes are ahead for us. I love Oklahoma. I don't want to leave yet. I want to be close to my family, especially since I would like to have baby no. two in a couple of years. I'm having a hard time letting God lead me and my family down the path we're meant to take, but I'm getting better.
Anyway. I also started no. 28, which was to have dinner with friends at least once during eight separate months. A couple of weeks ago, I met up with my old roommate and two of my awesome friends from college. It had been SO LONG since we'd seen one another, and we had a lot to catch up on. One of the girls I consider one of my best friends from college, and she and I stayed two hours after the restaurant closed and just talked. I missed her so much...it was nice to catch up and to spend some interrupted time with some of my dearest friends. We ate at Thai Cafe, too...one of my fave restaurants in Stillwater. Yummay.
So I've started two more on my list, and I'm close to getting JJ's birth certificate ordered - I just need to write a check and send it off. If I do it now, I should have it right after the new year...I'm not sure how long those things take to get processed, but I'm sure it'll take at least a month, if not longer. It took me four months to get my new tags for my car...I'm hoping his birth certificates don't take THAT long, but we'll see. I'll be happy to get that out of the way - I'll feel like my son has the important documents he needs in his life right now. Now, if only his mommy could get her name legally changed...I've been married almost a year and haven't done it. Oops.
Life is going better, for the moment. Work has been super hectic; I've decided that I'm gonna have to start scheduling my time out throughout the day. It's pathetic that I have to do that, but that's what it's coming down to right now. I have no idea how I'm going to get everything crammed into the day, but I'm going to try my best. Family life is getting better; Thanksgiving was so awesome. I didn't leave my house any other time during my long weekend home except for the basketball game. I didn't even go Black Friday shopping; I did all my shopping online. It was so nice not to deal with the stores this year - I don't know what I was thinking when I went to the stores 39 weeks pregnant last year [never.again.]...my OB would've killed me if he knew I did that right before my son was born.
JJ's going to be one in three days! How bizarre is that?! My mind keeps reverting back to this week last week, when I found out I'd be induced on the 4th, how I felt, how anxious I was [and how i wanted him so desperately to come on his own because i was scared of being induced]...my last days at work, the day he was born...I remember all of that so clearly now. It's amazing how all of that has flooded back to me after a year; I'm pretty sure that week is the clearest remembered week in my entire life. I still can't believe that he's almost a year old and a toddler. I have GOT to start taking more pictures of him...and loading them to my own computer instead of the home one.
I would write more, but I've got to get to bed - I've already been up almost 24 hours. I'm gonna need coffee in the morning, that's for sure.
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12.01.2009
11.24.2009
In a funk.
No update on the 101 in 1001...this is just going to be a rant/vent blog.
I'm in this huge funk right now - borderline depression at this point - and it came out of nowhere. I have no idea where it came from, but I hate it.
My little man is about to turn one in less than two weeks, and I am so blessed to have him in my life. but then, I read about other's struggles to get pregnant and how they've lost babies, and it makes me wonder why my pregnancy was so easy. Why I'm the one who got the healthy, happy baby boy. Why it was so easy for us to get pregnant. I can't imagine being told that I've lost my child, or being told that I have to deliver my child because he/she is very sick and won't make it. As a mom, I already go into emotional distress every time my son is sick or is upset, and I comfort him as much as I can...but being able to not have those moments would kill me. Those moms who have lost little ones are the strongest women I know.
Work has been super stressful, and I just want to take a vacation and get away from all of this. I've worked the last four weekends, have been nonstop for weeks now, and I haven't even been home in five weeks. Granted, the past four weeks have flown by, but that doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and distressed about how this year's going. I feel like I'm going to cave at any moment, but I can't let myself get that far. I just can't.
It just seems like everything around me is falling apart right now...and I'm usually good at catching all the pieces, but I can't do it this time. And I don't know what to do to keep it all together, because I don't know if I can. the only thing I can do is regroup, refocus and pray I make it to Christmas break in one piece. I'm just feeling all these pressures from other places, and I can't keep it all together right now. If I could, I'd sleep the next six weeks away and wake up in 2010...maybe next year will be a better year than this year has been.
OK. I'm done.
I'm in this huge funk right now - borderline depression at this point - and it came out of nowhere. I have no idea where it came from, but I hate it.
My little man is about to turn one in less than two weeks, and I am so blessed to have him in my life. but then, I read about other's struggles to get pregnant and how they've lost babies, and it makes me wonder why my pregnancy was so easy. Why I'm the one who got the healthy, happy baby boy. Why it was so easy for us to get pregnant. I can't imagine being told that I've lost my child, or being told that I have to deliver my child because he/she is very sick and won't make it. As a mom, I already go into emotional distress every time my son is sick or is upset, and I comfort him as much as I can...but being able to not have those moments would kill me. Those moms who have lost little ones are the strongest women I know.
Work has been super stressful, and I just want to take a vacation and get away from all of this. I've worked the last four weekends, have been nonstop for weeks now, and I haven't even been home in five weeks. Granted, the past four weeks have flown by, but that doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and distressed about how this year's going. I feel like I'm going to cave at any moment, but I can't let myself get that far. I just can't.
It just seems like everything around me is falling apart right now...and I'm usually good at catching all the pieces, but I can't do it this time. And I don't know what to do to keep it all together, because I don't know if I can. the only thing I can do is regroup, refocus and pray I make it to Christmas break in one piece. I'm just feeling all these pressures from other places, and I can't keep it all together right now. If I could, I'd sleep the next six weeks away and wake up in 2010...maybe next year will be a better year than this year has been.
OK. I'm done.
11.11.2009
More of #42: Two new restaurants!
I can't believe I forgot that before I went to Crepe Myrtle last week, I'd gone to a new restaurant before then. Last Monday night, when I was in Wichita for a college fair, I went to Los Cocos with my boss. It was this super yummy Mexican restaurant that we stumbled upon after my Garmin led us to four restaurants that were either closed or shady. I had the absolute best carne asada I've ever had, and the Mexican rice was SO good. By the end of the meal, I was so stuffed!
Today, I went to another new restaurant that I've been dying to try since I saw it last Tuesday. In Old Towne in Wichita, we went to this amazing gelato shop last week called Bella Luz [I won't count it was one of the 10 new restaurants because we only had gelato there], and there was a German food place across the way called Imbiss Grille. I went back to Wichita today for a high school visit and made my way back there to try the place out. I had pork weiner schnitzel, green beans and mashed potatoes...and it was SO good. I want to go back and eat there again! I haven't eaten real German food since my sophomore year of high school, so I can't really compare it to anything...but it was amazing. My sister and I plan on taking a random weekend trip to Wichita soon, and we'll definitely be going there.
Anyway. That's all I've got on the list. Life itself has been so insane that I can barely think straight. I'm so glad this week is nearly over, because it's been hellish for me. I made it through my Wichita event and high school visit, and now I have OSSM, a high talent student and two events Saturday to get through. I've been so busy, I haven't had time to dwell on the fact that we have a football game Saturday night. Isn't that sad?
I've been taking things in stride, but it hasn't been easy. Over the past two nights, I've gotten maybe eight hours of sleep...nearly took a toll on me today while I was making the two-hour drive back to Stillwater from Wichita. I had to pull over and take a power nap just so I would make it home...and I've never had to do that before. I'm straight-up exhausted, but I'm hanging on. I've gotta finish the dishes and put up the leftovers from dinner before I turn in for the night, but I'm glad I got the traveling part of my week out of the way. Makes the rest of the week easier to deal with, that's for sure.
I got to talk to one of my dearest friends today! Amy and I used to work together, but she and her husband took jobs in Iraq and left in September [i miss her a ton, lemme tell ya]. Well, she got Skype and called me today, and we finally got to talk! I got a little teary-eyed while we were talking - I'm not sure how long she'll be gone, so I don't know when I'll see her again - but it was so great to talk to her and catch up. Ah, the wonders of modern technology...five years ago, this wouldn't have been possible, her calling me from her computer to my cell phone. Amazing.
JJ's going to be one in three freaking weeks. How in the world did time fly by so fast?! Tonight, one of my goals is to order his birthday stuff...eBay, here I come. We've got presents already for him, but I need to do invites and get his party stuff. I think my mom's making his cake, but I'll have to ask her tomorrow and see. Tonight, when we were playing around after we got home, I nearly had a breakdown...just a year ago, I was anxiously awaiting his arrival. Now, he's almost one, and the past year has flown so fast. It's bittersweet to think about how fast the next few years are going to fly...
But I won't dwell on that. Right now, I've got stuff to do. More later. :)
Today, I went to another new restaurant that I've been dying to try since I saw it last Tuesday. In Old Towne in Wichita, we went to this amazing gelato shop last week called Bella Luz [I won't count it was one of the 10 new restaurants because we only had gelato there], and there was a German food place across the way called Imbiss Grille. I went back to Wichita today for a high school visit and made my way back there to try the place out. I had pork weiner schnitzel, green beans and mashed potatoes...and it was SO good. I want to go back and eat there again! I haven't eaten real German food since my sophomore year of high school, so I can't really compare it to anything...but it was amazing. My sister and I plan on taking a random weekend trip to Wichita soon, and we'll definitely be going there.
Anyway. That's all I've got on the list. Life itself has been so insane that I can barely think straight. I'm so glad this week is nearly over, because it's been hellish for me. I made it through my Wichita event and high school visit, and now I have OSSM, a high talent student and two events Saturday to get through. I've been so busy, I haven't had time to dwell on the fact that we have a football game Saturday night. Isn't that sad?
I've been taking things in stride, but it hasn't been easy. Over the past two nights, I've gotten maybe eight hours of sleep...nearly took a toll on me today while I was making the two-hour drive back to Stillwater from Wichita. I had to pull over and take a power nap just so I would make it home...and I've never had to do that before. I'm straight-up exhausted, but I'm hanging on. I've gotta finish the dishes and put up the leftovers from dinner before I turn in for the night, but I'm glad I got the traveling part of my week out of the way. Makes the rest of the week easier to deal with, that's for sure.
I got to talk to one of my dearest friends today! Amy and I used to work together, but she and her husband took jobs in Iraq and left in September [i miss her a ton, lemme tell ya]. Well, she got Skype and called me today, and we finally got to talk! I got a little teary-eyed while we were talking - I'm not sure how long she'll be gone, so I don't know when I'll see her again - but it was so great to talk to her and catch up. Ah, the wonders of modern technology...five years ago, this wouldn't have been possible, her calling me from her computer to my cell phone. Amazing.
JJ's going to be one in three freaking weeks. How in the world did time fly by so fast?! Tonight, one of my goals is to order his birthday stuff...eBay, here I come. We've got presents already for him, but I need to do invites and get his party stuff. I think my mom's making his cake, but I'll have to ask her tomorrow and see. Tonight, when we were playing around after we got home, I nearly had a breakdown...just a year ago, I was anxiously awaiting his arrival. Now, he's almost one, and the past year has flown so fast. It's bittersweet to think about how fast the next few years are going to fly...
But I won't dwell on that. Right now, I've got stuff to do. More later. :)
11.04.2009
No. 19 and No. 42 started!
I finally started two other things on my list! No. 19 is to buy JJ 50 books...and I just got him five Dr. Seuss books for his birthday. He's got: The Cat in the Hat; Hop on Pop; ABC 123; and I think he got Green Eggs and Ham. I don't remember the fifth one...bagh.
I also started No. 42, which is to eat at 10 new restaurants. I ate a Crepe Myrtle today, which is this awesome restaurant on The Strip in Stillwater. I've been here more than five years, and I've NEVER eaten there...boo on me. I had the fried chicken strips with honey mustard sauce and seasoned curly fries, and I am SO stuffed. It was absolutely delicious! I heard they have awesome burgers, too, so I'm gonna have to go back and eat there again soon. Yum.
So Halloween has come and gone, and I had a pretty awesome costume this year:
Today makes exactly one month until my little man turns a year old. Oh my goodness - where has the last year gone?! I keep thinking back to a year ago, when I was in my last month and so nervous and excited, and I wasn't sleeping or eating well, and I was so uncomfortable but so ready to meet him...and now, he's becoming a big boy and trying to walk [well, run, at least] and trying to say more words...it just blows my mind how fast this year flew. I think time flies faster after you have kids because you watch them grow up in front of your eyes. It's such a bittersweet thing for me. We started ordering Christmas and birthday presents, and I've got an idea for his birthday invitations that I'll figure out in my mind over the next couple of days.
Work's been crazy busy, as always, but I'm finally getting caught up with stuff. Got an event this weekend, two events next week and then an event next weekend, and I'm pretty much done with the semester. Thank goodness. I'm just hoping to make it to Christmas in one piece...we'll see how that goes.
That's all I've got for now; I'll be able to update more once I get my computer cord in. I've been putting off ordering it, but I've got to get it now - I'm sick of not having a computer at home [especially now that I have a fantasy basketball league and can't keep up with all the games]. Speaking of sports, my boss made a comment the other day that he's impressed that I'm so into sports. I'm not quite sure when my true obsession for sports began...probably when I came to college, since OSU is a Big 12 school and all...but it's gotten worse over the past four years. I know it drives my mom insane that I can sit there and watch SportsCenter for hours at a time, even though stuff doesn't change on it during that time. Hee.
Well, white cards call me. I'll update again soon!
I also started No. 42, which is to eat at 10 new restaurants. I ate a Crepe Myrtle today, which is this awesome restaurant on The Strip in Stillwater. I've been here more than five years, and I've NEVER eaten there...boo on me. I had the fried chicken strips with honey mustard sauce and seasoned curly fries, and I am SO stuffed. It was absolutely delicious! I heard they have awesome burgers, too, so I'm gonna have to go back and eat there again soon. Yum.
So Halloween has come and gone, and I had a pretty awesome costume this year:
I was a sexified Hermione Granger for Halloween. The ref costume came in Friday night at like, 6:30, but it didn't fit right. So I went to the party store and bought this one - and it fit perfectly. Add the cape, the wand, the glasses and my boots, and it was perfect. I know people thought it was skanky, but I loved it. I'm finally getting comfortable with my body again after having JJ, and I showed it off just a little bit. After the dismal loss to Texas [I'll rant about that later], I went out with my sister and two friends to the bars with my costume. The pic is of me and my buddy Jason before we headed out for the night. The bars were a little boring, but it's all good - I still loved my costume. :)
Today makes exactly one month until my little man turns a year old. Oh my goodness - where has the last year gone?! I keep thinking back to a year ago, when I was in my last month and so nervous and excited, and I wasn't sleeping or eating well, and I was so uncomfortable but so ready to meet him...and now, he's becoming a big boy and trying to walk [well, run, at least] and trying to say more words...it just blows my mind how fast this year flew. I think time flies faster after you have kids because you watch them grow up in front of your eyes. It's such a bittersweet thing for me. We started ordering Christmas and birthday presents, and I've got an idea for his birthday invitations that I'll figure out in my mind over the next couple of days.
Work's been crazy busy, as always, but I'm finally getting caught up with stuff. Got an event this weekend, two events next week and then an event next weekend, and I'm pretty much done with the semester. Thank goodness. I'm just hoping to make it to Christmas in one piece...we'll see how that goes.
That's all I've got for now; I'll be able to update more once I get my computer cord in. I've been putting off ordering it, but I've got to get it now - I'm sick of not having a computer at home [especially now that I have a fantasy basketball league and can't keep up with all the games]. Speaking of sports, my boss made a comment the other day that he's impressed that I'm so into sports. I'm not quite sure when my true obsession for sports began...probably when I came to college, since OSU is a Big 12 school and all...but it's gotten worse over the past four years. I know it drives my mom insane that I can sit there and watch SportsCenter for hours at a time, even though stuff doesn't change on it during that time. Hee.
Well, white cards call me. I'll update again soon!
10.03.2009
Dinner with my mom.
So the 1st was when I could start, and I've been doing things on my list here and there. I'm currently reading Twilight - and am freaking HOOKED - and I have New Moon to start soon. I'm hoping to get a good chunk of Twilight read this weekend and while I'm flying to Houston...my personal goal is to have both books read by the time New Moon comes out next month. So excited.
Last night, I took my mom out to dinner - we went to Panera in OKC. It was so fun to just talk to my mom about all this random crap that's been going on in my life. She and I are pretty close, but we spend a lot of time talking about work when we're on the phone or together. Last night, it was just like when I was in high school, which was fun. And JJ was ALL over the place - such a boy - so we were talking about him, how much he's grown...kinda hard to believe that there are three generations in my family now.
Speaking of JJ, he's just the most amazing little boy ever. I'm so blessed to have such a great baby on my hands - he rarely gets fussy, he's content to play by himself [as long as he's surrounded by toys], and he's SO much fun to have around. Teeth no. 7 and 8 popped up on Tuesday, so we finally got him his own toothbrush and toothpaste. I can't believe we're starting to brush his teeth! Time is flying WAY too fast.
Anyway, the list is coming along just fine right now. I need to jack my mom's camera at home so I can start taking pictures and posting them of all the stuff I do...make this thing more interesting to follow. :) I'll update again soon!
Oh yeah - I bought a new journal yesterday, too. I'm such a dork...I was WAY excited to find one that I actually like. And it's got a lot of pages, so this one should last me awhile. It'll be cool to keep a personal recount of this time in my life. :)
Last night, I took my mom out to dinner - we went to Panera in OKC. It was so fun to just talk to my mom about all this random crap that's been going on in my life. She and I are pretty close, but we spend a lot of time talking about work when we're on the phone or together. Last night, it was just like when I was in high school, which was fun. And JJ was ALL over the place - such a boy - so we were talking about him, how much he's grown...kinda hard to believe that there are three generations in my family now.
Speaking of JJ, he's just the most amazing little boy ever. I'm so blessed to have such a great baby on my hands - he rarely gets fussy, he's content to play by himself [as long as he's surrounded by toys], and he's SO much fun to have around. Teeth no. 7 and 8 popped up on Tuesday, so we finally got him his own toothbrush and toothpaste. I can't believe we're starting to brush his teeth! Time is flying WAY too fast.
Anyway, the list is coming along just fine right now. I need to jack my mom's camera at home so I can start taking pictures and posting them of all the stuff I do...make this thing more interesting to follow. :) I'll update again soon!
Oh yeah - I bought a new journal yesterday, too. I'm such a dork...I was WAY excited to find one that I actually like. And it's got a lot of pages, so this one should last me awhile. It'll be cool to keep a personal recount of this time in my life. :)
9.29.2009
Proud mama moment.
So this has nothing to do with my list or preparing to start my list [two days!]. I just wanted to note this day in history.
My son crawled for the first time this morning.
He was on my bed while I was gathering his stuff for the day. He rolled over to grab a bottle cap, but I moved it away from him. He rolled back over and started to crawl towards it. I didn't believe he was actually doing it and thought the blankets were helping him move along, so I put him on the floor to see if he'd do it.
He got to crawl six steps before I picked him up, spun him around and alerted the media [aka my family].
I can't believe he's actually crawling. He's still getting the hang of it...he alternates between belly slithering and actual crawling...but he's been so close to doing it for weeks that I think I'm still in shock he actually did it. I've been excited all day about it, but I've also started thinking about all the babyproofing stuff I need to do, like:
* Purchase baby gates
* Purchase electrical outlet protectors
* Start putting all the small stuff out of reach
* Drop his crib so he can't slither out
* Get soft stuff for corners
I'm also debating surrounding my bed and his crib with padding so if he happens to roll over, at least he land on something soft. However, I never leave him alone in either place while he's up [and he's in his crib while he's sleeping], so I may skip it.
I can't believe my son has six teeth [with seven and eight on the way], is crawling and is getting better at walking with assistance. Pretty soon, he'll be one year old, talking, running and keeping this mommy on her toes even more than she is now.
Where does the time go?! I mean, just a year ago, I was nearing the end of my pregnancy and anxious, nervous and excited. Now, my son's going to be 10 months old on Sunday, and he's hitting all these major baby milestones. It blows my mind.
My co-workers were right when they told me this quote...life is long days and short years.
My son crawled for the first time this morning.
He was on my bed while I was gathering his stuff for the day. He rolled over to grab a bottle cap, but I moved it away from him. He rolled back over and started to crawl towards it. I didn't believe he was actually doing it and thought the blankets were helping him move along, so I put him on the floor to see if he'd do it.
He got to crawl six steps before I picked him up, spun him around and alerted the media [aka my family].
I can't believe he's actually crawling. He's still getting the hang of it...he alternates between belly slithering and actual crawling...but he's been so close to doing it for weeks that I think I'm still in shock he actually did it. I've been excited all day about it, but I've also started thinking about all the babyproofing stuff I need to do, like:
* Purchase baby gates
* Purchase electrical outlet protectors
* Start putting all the small stuff out of reach
* Drop his crib so he can't slither out
* Get soft stuff for corners
I'm also debating surrounding my bed and his crib with padding so if he happens to roll over, at least he land on something soft. However, I never leave him alone in either place while he's up [and he's in his crib while he's sleeping], so I may skip it.
I can't believe my son has six teeth [with seven and eight on the way], is crawling and is getting better at walking with assistance. Pretty soon, he'll be one year old, talking, running and keeping this mommy on her toes even more than she is now.
Where does the time go?! I mean, just a year ago, I was nearing the end of my pregnancy and anxious, nervous and excited. Now, my son's going to be 10 months old on Sunday, and he's hitting all these major baby milestones. It blows my mind.
My co-workers were right when they told me this quote...life is long days and short years.
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