I finally have new ones that I've started...I'm so excited. :)
The first one on the list, #6, was to go on a date night every month for a year with J. We had our first date night [in a long time, i must say] this past Friday - we went to the Thunder-Bucks game together. Because the game got moved from 6:00 to 8:30 [stupid tv schedule, but it was cool the thunder got some national tv time], my parents didn't want to go, so J and I went. We invited his best friend, but he had an emergency to tend to and didn't make it...so it was just us. It was so nice - we'd never been to an NBA game together before, and it was awesome for us to just go without baby. During Christmas break, we're going to do dinner and a movie for our second date night...I'm too excited.
Things are going better with us now...I'm just getting anxious about this whole Air Force thing. I'm probably going to meet with his recruiter during Christmas break to get some final questions answered, see if we can find out when he's leaving for basic and tie up whatever loose ends we need to tie up. I'm anxious and excited for this to start, but I'm also nervous and afraid about what life changes are ahead for us. I love Oklahoma. I don't want to leave yet. I want to be close to my family, especially since I would like to have baby no. two in a couple of years. I'm having a hard time letting God lead me and my family down the path we're meant to take, but I'm getting better.
Anyway. I also started no. 28, which was to have dinner with friends at least once during eight separate months. A couple of weeks ago, I met up with my old roommate and two of my awesome friends from college. It had been SO LONG since we'd seen one another, and we had a lot to catch up on. One of the girls I consider one of my best friends from college, and she and I stayed two hours after the restaurant closed and just talked. I missed her so much...it was nice to catch up and to spend some interrupted time with some of my dearest friends. We ate at Thai Cafe, too...one of my fave restaurants in Stillwater. Yummay.
So I've started two more on my list, and I'm close to getting JJ's birth certificate ordered - I just need to write a check and send it off. If I do it now, I should have it right after the new year...I'm not sure how long those things take to get processed, but I'm sure it'll take at least a month, if not longer. It took me four months to get my new tags for my car...I'm hoping his birth certificates don't take THAT long, but we'll see. I'll be happy to get that out of the way - I'll feel like my son has the important documents he needs in his life right now. Now, if only his mommy could get her name legally changed...I've been married almost a year and haven't done it. Oops.
Life is going better, for the moment. Work has been super hectic; I've decided that I'm gonna have to start scheduling my time out throughout the day. It's pathetic that I have to do that, but that's what it's coming down to right now. I have no idea how I'm going to get everything crammed into the day, but I'm going to try my best. Family life is getting better; Thanksgiving was so awesome. I didn't leave my house any other time during my long weekend home except for the basketball game. I didn't even go Black Friday shopping; I did all my shopping online. It was so nice not to deal with the stores this year - I don't know what I was thinking when I went to the stores 39 weeks pregnant last year [never.again.]...my OB would've killed me if he knew I did that right before my son was born.
JJ's going to be one in three days! How bizarre is that?! My mind keeps reverting back to this week last week, when I found out I'd be induced on the 4th, how I felt, how anxious I was [and how i wanted him so desperately to come on his own because i was scared of being induced]...my last days at work, the day he was born...I remember all of that so clearly now. It's amazing how all of that has flooded back to me after a year; I'm pretty sure that week is the clearest remembered week in my entire life. I still can't believe that he's almost a year old and a toddler. I have GOT to start taking more pictures of him...and loading them to my own computer instead of the home one.
I would write more, but I've got to get to bed - I've already been up almost 24 hours. I'm gonna need coffee in the morning, that's for sure.
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12.01.2009
11.24.2009
In a funk.
No update on the 101 in 1001...this is just going to be a rant/vent blog.
I'm in this huge funk right now - borderline depression at this point - and it came out of nowhere. I have no idea where it came from, but I hate it.
My little man is about to turn one in less than two weeks, and I am so blessed to have him in my life. but then, I read about other's struggles to get pregnant and how they've lost babies, and it makes me wonder why my pregnancy was so easy. Why I'm the one who got the healthy, happy baby boy. Why it was so easy for us to get pregnant. I can't imagine being told that I've lost my child, or being told that I have to deliver my child because he/she is very sick and won't make it. As a mom, I already go into emotional distress every time my son is sick or is upset, and I comfort him as much as I can...but being able to not have those moments would kill me. Those moms who have lost little ones are the strongest women I know.
Work has been super stressful, and I just want to take a vacation and get away from all of this. I've worked the last four weekends, have been nonstop for weeks now, and I haven't even been home in five weeks. Granted, the past four weeks have flown by, but that doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and distressed about how this year's going. I feel like I'm going to cave at any moment, but I can't let myself get that far. I just can't.
It just seems like everything around me is falling apart right now...and I'm usually good at catching all the pieces, but I can't do it this time. And I don't know what to do to keep it all together, because I don't know if I can. the only thing I can do is regroup, refocus and pray I make it to Christmas break in one piece. I'm just feeling all these pressures from other places, and I can't keep it all together right now. If I could, I'd sleep the next six weeks away and wake up in 2010...maybe next year will be a better year than this year has been.
OK. I'm done.
I'm in this huge funk right now - borderline depression at this point - and it came out of nowhere. I have no idea where it came from, but I hate it.
My little man is about to turn one in less than two weeks, and I am so blessed to have him in my life. but then, I read about other's struggles to get pregnant and how they've lost babies, and it makes me wonder why my pregnancy was so easy. Why I'm the one who got the healthy, happy baby boy. Why it was so easy for us to get pregnant. I can't imagine being told that I've lost my child, or being told that I have to deliver my child because he/she is very sick and won't make it. As a mom, I already go into emotional distress every time my son is sick or is upset, and I comfort him as much as I can...but being able to not have those moments would kill me. Those moms who have lost little ones are the strongest women I know.
Work has been super stressful, and I just want to take a vacation and get away from all of this. I've worked the last four weekends, have been nonstop for weeks now, and I haven't even been home in five weeks. Granted, the past four weeks have flown by, but that doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and distressed about how this year's going. I feel like I'm going to cave at any moment, but I can't let myself get that far. I just can't.
It just seems like everything around me is falling apart right now...and I'm usually good at catching all the pieces, but I can't do it this time. And I don't know what to do to keep it all together, because I don't know if I can. the only thing I can do is regroup, refocus and pray I make it to Christmas break in one piece. I'm just feeling all these pressures from other places, and I can't keep it all together right now. If I could, I'd sleep the next six weeks away and wake up in 2010...maybe next year will be a better year than this year has been.
OK. I'm done.
11.17.2009
Case of the Mondays.
Today started out like a typical Monday. I woke up at 7:00, realizing I'd slept way longer than I was supposed to and hadn't done ANYTHING the night before [which meant my apartment was in shambles, jj's stuff was still in my sister's car, and i had to move his car seat back to my car]. My sister leaving woke me up, but it didn't jolt my memory...I realized half an hour after she left that my keys were in her car, and I didn't have a spare. So, poor thing had to turn around and bring me BACK my keys, then drive back to work. I know she was pissed, but she was an awesome sport about it.
I got to work at 8:35, and my high talent visit was there already. They were 25 minutes early. So I scrambled to get all their stuff, met with them and sent them with Adam so I could do the morning tour presentation. Figure out after the presentation that my family's appointments ended super early, and they were nearly ready for lunch already. Scrambled to get them taken care of, discovered the state car I was in had the 'check engine' light on, and realized it was nearly sleeting in Stillwater. Family left in good spirits, car got dropped off, and the rain finally stopped [but it was freaking freezing all day].
Got back to the office, had a family waiting on me that I'd let slip my mind, then I met with ANOTHER family while the first one was gone. Second family came back and left after 4:00...which pretty much was the end of the day at that point. Oh my gosh today was nuts...I'm so glad things will slow down tomorrow and Wednesday so I can maybe get some work done. I wish I could work late so I'm not in the office during all of the craziness, but with JJ being in bed by 7:00 most nights, I am NOT taking him out there and working late just to get him home and throw his schedule off. I'm just glad today's over.
Made it through last week in one piece...barely. After work on Saturday, I was so tired that I sat through most of the first half of the OSU game on Saturday...which is rare for me. My feet and legs were just killing me [note to self: need insoles for my boots]. But the most important thing is that we made it in one piece, and last week is over. Made it through today, and now, I gotta make it through the week. I can do this. One day at a time.
Don't have any new updates to the list just yet...I was going to do more of the survey, but I'm so tired now that I'm just gonna head to bed. The weather today was cold, dreary and rainy...early Oklahoma winter's set in, seems like. Perfect day to get off work and cuddle up at home with baby boy...which is what I did. But now, it's time for bed. Just wanted to update this thing beforehand...more later!
I got to work at 8:35, and my high talent visit was there already. They were 25 minutes early. So I scrambled to get all their stuff, met with them and sent them with Adam so I could do the morning tour presentation. Figure out after the presentation that my family's appointments ended super early, and they were nearly ready for lunch already. Scrambled to get them taken care of, discovered the state car I was in had the 'check engine' light on, and realized it was nearly sleeting in Stillwater. Family left in good spirits, car got dropped off, and the rain finally stopped [but it was freaking freezing all day].
Got back to the office, had a family waiting on me that I'd let slip my mind, then I met with ANOTHER family while the first one was gone. Second family came back and left after 4:00...which pretty much was the end of the day at that point. Oh my gosh today was nuts...I'm so glad things will slow down tomorrow and Wednesday so I can maybe get some work done. I wish I could work late so I'm not in the office during all of the craziness, but with JJ being in bed by 7:00 most nights, I am NOT taking him out there and working late just to get him home and throw his schedule off. I'm just glad today's over.
Made it through last week in one piece...barely. After work on Saturday, I was so tired that I sat through most of the first half of the OSU game on Saturday...which is rare for me. My feet and legs were just killing me [note to self: need insoles for my boots]. But the most important thing is that we made it in one piece, and last week is over. Made it through today, and now, I gotta make it through the week. I can do this. One day at a time.
Don't have any new updates to the list just yet...I was going to do more of the survey, but I'm so tired now that I'm just gonna head to bed. The weather today was cold, dreary and rainy...early Oklahoma winter's set in, seems like. Perfect day to get off work and cuddle up at home with baby boy...which is what I did. But now, it's time for bed. Just wanted to update this thing beforehand...more later!
11.11.2009
More of #42: Two new restaurants!
I can't believe I forgot that before I went to Crepe Myrtle last week, I'd gone to a new restaurant before then. Last Monday night, when I was in Wichita for a college fair, I went to Los Cocos with my boss. It was this super yummy Mexican restaurant that we stumbled upon after my Garmin led us to four restaurants that were either closed or shady. I had the absolute best carne asada I've ever had, and the Mexican rice was SO good. By the end of the meal, I was so stuffed!
Today, I went to another new restaurant that I've been dying to try since I saw it last Tuesday. In Old Towne in Wichita, we went to this amazing gelato shop last week called Bella Luz [I won't count it was one of the 10 new restaurants because we only had gelato there], and there was a German food place across the way called Imbiss Grille. I went back to Wichita today for a high school visit and made my way back there to try the place out. I had pork weiner schnitzel, green beans and mashed potatoes...and it was SO good. I want to go back and eat there again! I haven't eaten real German food since my sophomore year of high school, so I can't really compare it to anything...but it was amazing. My sister and I plan on taking a random weekend trip to Wichita soon, and we'll definitely be going there.
Anyway. That's all I've got on the list. Life itself has been so insane that I can barely think straight. I'm so glad this week is nearly over, because it's been hellish for me. I made it through my Wichita event and high school visit, and now I have OSSM, a high talent student and two events Saturday to get through. I've been so busy, I haven't had time to dwell on the fact that we have a football game Saturday night. Isn't that sad?
I've been taking things in stride, but it hasn't been easy. Over the past two nights, I've gotten maybe eight hours of sleep...nearly took a toll on me today while I was making the two-hour drive back to Stillwater from Wichita. I had to pull over and take a power nap just so I would make it home...and I've never had to do that before. I'm straight-up exhausted, but I'm hanging on. I've gotta finish the dishes and put up the leftovers from dinner before I turn in for the night, but I'm glad I got the traveling part of my week out of the way. Makes the rest of the week easier to deal with, that's for sure.
I got to talk to one of my dearest friends today! Amy and I used to work together, but she and her husband took jobs in Iraq and left in September [i miss her a ton, lemme tell ya]. Well, she got Skype and called me today, and we finally got to talk! I got a little teary-eyed while we were talking - I'm not sure how long she'll be gone, so I don't know when I'll see her again - but it was so great to talk to her and catch up. Ah, the wonders of modern technology...five years ago, this wouldn't have been possible, her calling me from her computer to my cell phone. Amazing.
JJ's going to be one in three freaking weeks. How in the world did time fly by so fast?! Tonight, one of my goals is to order his birthday stuff...eBay, here I come. We've got presents already for him, but I need to do invites and get his party stuff. I think my mom's making his cake, but I'll have to ask her tomorrow and see. Tonight, when we were playing around after we got home, I nearly had a breakdown...just a year ago, I was anxiously awaiting his arrival. Now, he's almost one, and the past year has flown so fast. It's bittersweet to think about how fast the next few years are going to fly...
But I won't dwell on that. Right now, I've got stuff to do. More later. :)
Today, I went to another new restaurant that I've been dying to try since I saw it last Tuesday. In Old Towne in Wichita, we went to this amazing gelato shop last week called Bella Luz [I won't count it was one of the 10 new restaurants because we only had gelato there], and there was a German food place across the way called Imbiss Grille. I went back to Wichita today for a high school visit and made my way back there to try the place out. I had pork weiner schnitzel, green beans and mashed potatoes...and it was SO good. I want to go back and eat there again! I haven't eaten real German food since my sophomore year of high school, so I can't really compare it to anything...but it was amazing. My sister and I plan on taking a random weekend trip to Wichita soon, and we'll definitely be going there.
Anyway. That's all I've got on the list. Life itself has been so insane that I can barely think straight. I'm so glad this week is nearly over, because it's been hellish for me. I made it through my Wichita event and high school visit, and now I have OSSM, a high talent student and two events Saturday to get through. I've been so busy, I haven't had time to dwell on the fact that we have a football game Saturday night. Isn't that sad?
I've been taking things in stride, but it hasn't been easy. Over the past two nights, I've gotten maybe eight hours of sleep...nearly took a toll on me today while I was making the two-hour drive back to Stillwater from Wichita. I had to pull over and take a power nap just so I would make it home...and I've never had to do that before. I'm straight-up exhausted, but I'm hanging on. I've gotta finish the dishes and put up the leftovers from dinner before I turn in for the night, but I'm glad I got the traveling part of my week out of the way. Makes the rest of the week easier to deal with, that's for sure.
I got to talk to one of my dearest friends today! Amy and I used to work together, but she and her husband took jobs in Iraq and left in September [i miss her a ton, lemme tell ya]. Well, she got Skype and called me today, and we finally got to talk! I got a little teary-eyed while we were talking - I'm not sure how long she'll be gone, so I don't know when I'll see her again - but it was so great to talk to her and catch up. Ah, the wonders of modern technology...five years ago, this wouldn't have been possible, her calling me from her computer to my cell phone. Amazing.
JJ's going to be one in three freaking weeks. How in the world did time fly by so fast?! Tonight, one of my goals is to order his birthday stuff...eBay, here I come. We've got presents already for him, but I need to do invites and get his party stuff. I think my mom's making his cake, but I'll have to ask her tomorrow and see. Tonight, when we were playing around after we got home, I nearly had a breakdown...just a year ago, I was anxiously awaiting his arrival. Now, he's almost one, and the past year has flown so fast. It's bittersweet to think about how fast the next few years are going to fly...
But I won't dwell on that. Right now, I've got stuff to do. More later. :)
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