In a funk.

No update on the 101 in 1001...this is just going to be a rant/vent blog.

I'm in this huge funk right now - borderline depression at this point - and it came out of nowhere. I have no idea where it came from, but I hate it.

My little man is about to turn one in less than two weeks, and I am so blessed to have him in my life.  but then, I read about other's struggles to get pregnant and how they've lost babies, and it makes me wonder why my pregnancy was so easy. Why I'm the one who got the healthy, happy baby boy. Why it was so easy for us to get pregnant. I can't imagine being told that I've lost my child, or being told that I have to deliver my child because he/she is very sick and won't make it. As a mom, I already go into emotional distress every time my son is sick or is upset, and I comfort him as much as I can...but being able to not have those moments would kill me. Those moms who have lost little ones are the strongest women I know.

Work has been super stressful, and I just want to take a vacation and get away from all of this. I've worked the last four weekends, have been nonstop for weeks now, and I haven't even been home in five weeks. Granted, the past four weeks have flown by, but that doesn't stop me from feeling overwhelmed and distressed about how this year's going. I feel like I'm going to cave at any moment, but I can't let myself get that far. I just can't.

It just seems like everything around me is falling apart right now...and I'm usually good at catching all the pieces, but I can't do it this time. And I don't know what to do to keep it all together, because I don't know if I can. the only thing I can do is regroup, refocus and pray I make it to Christmas break in one piece. I'm just feeling all these pressures from other places, and I can't keep it all together right now. If I could, I'd sleep the next six weeks away and wake up in 2010...maybe next year will be a better year than this year has been.

OK. I'm done.


Case of the Mondays.

Today started out like a typical Monday. I woke up at 7:00, realizing I'd slept way longer than I was supposed to and hadn't done ANYTHING the night before [which meant my apartment was in shambles, jj's stuff was still in my sister's car, and i had to move his car seat back to my car]. My sister leaving woke me up, but it didn't jolt my memory...I realized half an hour after she left that my keys were in her car, and I didn't have a spare. So, poor thing had to turn around and bring me BACK my keys, then drive back to work. I know she was pissed, but she was an awesome sport about it.

I got to work at 8:35, and my high talent visit was there already. They were 25 minutes early. So I scrambled to get all their stuff, met with them and sent them with Adam so I could do the morning tour presentation. Figure out after the presentation that my family's appointments ended super early, and they were nearly ready for lunch already. Scrambled to get them taken care of, discovered the state car I was in had the 'check engine' light on, and realized it was nearly sleeting in Stillwater. Family left in good spirits, car got dropped off, and the rain finally stopped [but it was freaking freezing all day].

Got back to the office, had a family waiting on me that I'd let slip my mind, then I met with ANOTHER family while the first one was gone. Second family came back and left after 4:00...which pretty much was the end of the day at that point. Oh my gosh today was nuts...I'm so glad things will slow down tomorrow and Wednesday so I can maybe get some work done. I wish I could work late so I'm not in the office during all of the craziness, but with JJ being in bed by 7:00 most nights, I am NOT taking him out there and working late just to get him home and throw his schedule off. I'm just glad today's over.

Made it through last week in one piece...barely. After work on Saturday, I was so tired that I sat through most of the first half of the OSU game on Saturday...which is rare for me. My feet and legs were just killing me [note to self: need insoles for my boots]. But the most important thing is that we made it in one piece, and last week is over. Made it through today, and now, I gotta make it through the week. I can do this. One day at a time.

Don't have any new updates to the list just yet...I was going to do more of the survey, but I'm so tired now that I'm just gonna head to bed. The weather today was cold, dreary and rainy...early Oklahoma winter's set in, seems like. Perfect day to get off work and cuddle up at home with baby boy...which is what I did. But now, it's time for bed. Just wanted to update this thing beforehand...more later!


More of #42: Two new restaurants!

I can't believe I forgot that before I went to Crepe Myrtle last week, I'd gone to a new restaurant before then. Last Monday night, when I was in Wichita for a college fair, I went to Los Cocos with my boss. It was this super yummy Mexican restaurant that we stumbled upon after my Garmin led us to four restaurants that were either closed or shady. I had the absolute best carne asada I've ever had, and the Mexican rice was SO good. By the end of the meal, I was so stuffed!

Today, I went to another new restaurant that I've been dying to try since I saw it last Tuesday. In Old Towne in Wichita, we went to this amazing gelato shop last week called Bella Luz [I won't count it was one of the 10 new restaurants because we only had gelato there], and there was a German food place across the way called Imbiss Grille. I went back to Wichita today for a high school visit and made my way back there to try the place out. I had pork weiner schnitzel, green beans and mashed potatoes...and it was SO good. I want to go back and eat there again! I haven't eaten real German food since my sophomore year of high school, so I can't really compare it to anything...but it was amazing. My sister and I plan on taking a random weekend trip to Wichita soon, and we'll definitely be going there.

Anyway. That's all I've got on the list. Life itself has been so insane that I can barely think straight. I'm so glad this week is nearly over, because it's been hellish for me. I made it through my Wichita event and high school visit, and now I have OSSM, a high talent student and two events Saturday to get through. I've been so busy, I haven't had time to dwell on the fact that we have a football game Saturday night. Isn't that sad?

I've been taking things in stride, but it hasn't been easy. Over the past two nights, I've gotten maybe eight hours of sleep...nearly took a toll on me today while I was making the two-hour drive back to Stillwater from Wichita. I had to pull over and take a power nap just so I would make it home...and I've never had to do that before. I'm straight-up exhausted, but I'm hanging on. I've gotta finish the dishes and put up the leftovers from dinner before I turn in for the night, but I'm glad I got the traveling part of my week out of the way. Makes the rest of the week easier to deal with, that's for sure.

I got to talk to one of my dearest friends today! Amy and I used to work together, but she and her husband took jobs in Iraq and left in September [i miss her a ton, lemme tell ya]. Well, she got Skype and called me today, and we finally got to talk! I got a little teary-eyed while we were talking - I'm not sure how long she'll be gone, so I don't know when I'll see her again - but it was so great to talk to her and catch up. Ah, the wonders of modern technology...five years ago, this wouldn't have been possible, her calling me from her computer to my cell phone. Amazing.

JJ's going to be one in three freaking weeks. How in the world did time fly by so fast?! Tonight, one of my goals is to order his birthday stuff...eBay, here I come. We've got presents already for him, but I need to do invites and get his party stuff. I think my mom's making his cake, but I'll have to ask her tomorrow and see. Tonight, when we were playing around after we got home, I nearly had a breakdown...just a year ago, I was anxiously awaiting his arrival. Now, he's almost one, and the past year has flown so fast. It's bittersweet to think about how fast the next few years are going to fly...

But I won't dwell on that. Right now, I've got stuff to do. More later. :)

Even more of #92: 5000-question survey!

351. Have you ever lost something and never found it? Story of my life. I am ALWAYS losing stuff.

352. Do you listen to any talk radio shows? Not really...sometimes Ricky Smiley if I drive back to Stillwater on a Monday morning, but that's about it.

353. Who do you trust more, your friends or your parents? My parents.

354. Would you ever date someone outside of your race or religion? I have before...and my husband isn't the same religion as me.

355. Which of the 7 deadly sins in the worst (gluttony, greed, pride, lust, envy, wrath, sloth)? I think greed.

356. Which one are you most guilty of? Pride, probably.

357. Are you afraid to be alone with yourself? Not really...I like being alone.

Do you try to avoid thinking? All the time. Doesn't work though.

358. Would you venture to tell someone you loved him or her if they didn't say it first? I would consider it...not sure if I'd do it though.

359. What are you the most sensitive about? Oh gosh. A lot of stuff. I'm really sensitive about my alma mater...people talk ish about it, and I get pissed.

360. What can you talk about for hours? SPORTS.

361. Do you talk about yourself, other people, or ideas the most? Probably ideas.

362. Do you believe that spell casting can work? Not really, to be quite honest.

363. Are you a fan of The Legend of Zelda games? Eh. Not really. I've played them before, but it's been ages.

364. What old movie would you go see if it were re-released in the movie theaters? Um...Grease!

365. Is there a celebrity that you would be too starstruck to talk to if you met them? Justin Timberlake. I know I'd freeze. Or any of the Dallas Mavericks.

366. Have you ever left a mean anonymous comment or unsigned note? Once, maybe.

367. What kind of myspace buletins annoy you the most? All of them...except surveys. I'm never on there anymore though.

368. What are three things that you try not to think about? Him, me and us.

369. Is casual sex acceptable for you? It is if both consent to it.

370. What form of sexual protection do you use? Condoms only. Never been on BC.

371. What is expected of you that you feel is unnatural or not right? I don't know...I tend to make the rules myself so I don't ever feel that way...

372. Do you sometimes place your own expectations on other people? All the time...I try not to though. And I don't want to do that too much to JJ as he gets older...

373. Do you sometimes act overeager to make friends when you are around strangers? Nope.

374. Do you take everything that is said literally? Sometimes. That can get awkward. :

375. Do you take most things others say seriously? I try not to, since most of my friends are jokers to begin with.

376. Do you have a quick wit? Not as quick as my sister.

377. Do you believe in the need for political correctness? YES.

378. Do you have strong opinions and beliefs? I do. It's hard to change my mind about something once it's made up.

379. If yes, can you still hang out with and be friends with people who disagree with you? Of course. We can always agree to disagree, as long as the disagreement isn't disrespectful.

380. Are you uptight? Sometimes, yeah.

381. Do you sometimes do risky things? Not as much as others, but I've been known to do some risky things.

382. Could just about anyone hold your interest in a conversation for at least ten minutes? Just about, yeah.

383. Are you self-conscious? More than you know.

384. What would be your ideal destination for a Saturday afternoon? An OSU football game. :)

385. Does anyone have a video tape of you doing soemthing embaressing? Um...maybe from when I was little, yeah.

386. What is Kevin Smith’s(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kevin_Smith) best movie? Jay and Silent Bob!

387. Where do you like to go on Friday or Saturday nights? Home if I can swing it...otherwise, anywhere my friends are.

388. Do you like your friends to act the same way all the time or do you accept their moods and changes? I accept their moods and changes - it's only natural. However, if they go too far, I let them know.

389. Do you often feel like other people are judging you? All the time.

390. What do you think other people judge you to be like? I think people tend to look at the things I've done that they don't approve of and not the bigger picture. Annoying.

391. Are you quick to judge others? I try not to be, but I've been guilty of that before.

392. When you have a fight with someone do you want to talk about it right away or calm down first and then talk? I want to talk about it right away, but I try very hard to give the other person space if they need it.

393. Some say love is a river (according to the old song). What do you say love is? Overwhelming - in a good way.

394. What is the worst fault a person can have? I don't think there's one worst fault...

395. Do you have it? Probably.

396. Which do you think has more impact on a person’s character, genetics or environment? Environment, definitely.

397. Who was your first best friend? Shivaughn Ferguson. I always wonder what happened to her...

398. If you are not best friends anymore, what came between you? Thousands of miles - I moved to Oklahoma.

399. Who have you read a biography about? No one, I don't think...

400. What would your own autobiography be called? "Simply Glamorous." :)
401. Some say that high school is the best time of your life. Was that true for you? Psht. Yeah right. I was really dramatic in high school, so I made everything out to be a bigger deal than it was. And I was so eager to get to college that I didn't enjoy high school as much as I could have. High school wasn't that bad, but it definitely wasn't the time of my life.

402. What do you find yourself encouraging others to try? Always.

403. Which is better: Mel Brooks or Woody Allen? Mel Brooks.

404. When was the last time you were up all night? The Friday before Homecoming - I was up 'til 6:30 that morning. Ha.

405. __ is life. The rest is just details. Fill in the blank. Music.

406. Are people too complex and different to be categorized? I don't think so. People may be too complex to fit into one category, but I definitely think they can be categorized.

407. Is it good to have pride in your own race or does that separate people from each other because it makes them think of everyone else as 'outsiders'? I think it's good...however, there is such a thing as too much pride. When you get cocky about it, issues arise.

408. What fictional story would you like to live through? Oh gosh...a lot of them.

409. Are cats or dogs smarter? I think cats are smarter. And better at manipulating humans.

410. Have you ever guessed someone's password and broken into their email/diary/blog/myspace? Yeah. No.

411. What teacher, if any, has effected you the most in your life? Mr. Ross. He was my 6th grade teacher and changed my life. He prepared me for the real world and made me look at academics in a different light. I am forever grateful to him.

412. Are you more easily bored or excited? More easily excited. It doesn't take much for me to get excited about stuff. :P

413. What's the bravest or most daring thing you have ever done? I had a baby. Enough said.

414. "What's the point of robbery when nothing is worth taking?" (- Adam Ant) Curb boredom?

415. If your man or woman served you breakfast in bed as a treat what would you want to eat? Eggs, bacon, rice, French toast, coffee, orange juice, a bowl of fruit and a single rose in a tiny vase. :)

416. What do you do only when you are upset? Clench my fists. Hard.

417. What's the oddest CD in your collection? I own the CD for one of the Austin Powers movies. Ha.

418. What's the best screen name you ever saw? Oh gosh. Like I remember.

419. What would your friends be surprised to learn about you? I'm not as put together as I seem.

420. Who owes you an apology? A lot of people...but I don't sweat it.

421. Who deserves an apology from you? A lot of people...I'm getting there.

422. How would you like to treat your kids differently from the way your parents treated you? I'd be more open about stuff. Growing up, I was pretty sheltered...I don't want to shelter my kids that much.

423. Which do you like best: 60's, 70's or 80's fashion? '70s baby!

424. What is the worst pick up line ever used on you? I can't even remember. It was that bad.

425. Of the following, which word best describes you: inventive, kinetic (energetic), light-hearted, mature Mature, probably.

426. Do you own a record player? My parents do.
Do you use it? They used to - we haven't much lately.

427. How easily do you make friends? I can make friends pretty easily. Whether they stick around or not is a different story.

428. What is the difference between having character and being a character? Anyone can be a character, but it takes a special person to have character.

429. Are there any animals you flat out refuse to touch? Not really...well, anything that's got spikes or could spray me with stinky stuff. And I refuse to touch bugs.

430. Do you care about your weight? I do - not as much as I used to, but I'm still concerned about it.

431. Did you/will you go to the prom? I went to my senior prom - two hours late. Got food poisoning at dinner.

432. Have you ever wanted to date twins? Not really...that would get too confusing for me to handle.

433. What one thing would you change about high school if you could? I'd make the girls less bitchy. Don't think that's possible though.

434. If you came with a warning label, what would it say? Do not disturb unnecessarily. :P

435. Are you artistic and creative? I try to be...not as much as I would like to be though.

436. What were you (probably) doing on this date last year? Working hard and sleeping...I was in my last month of my pregnancy.

437. What are you obsessed with? Glee is my newest one. Sparkly things, make-up, sleep, shopping and my son are others. :)

438. What was the last compliment you received? Chrissy told me she liked my belt this morning. Awesome.

439. Do you have any brothers or sisters? One sister - she's 16 months younger than me. I adore her.

440. Who would you like to be alone with right now? I am SO not telling. If I have to tell,  you don't know me well.

441. Do you push people away when you really want them to come closer? All the time. I'm gad at that.

442. Is a prenuptial agreement necessary or does it take the romance and trust out of marriage? I think when a lot of assets are involved, it's necessary. You never know what could happen. It doesn't show a distrust in the marriage; it prevents you from getting screwed over should something happen. You just never know.

443. Do you lie your way out of things? I have before, yeah.

444. Are you better at talking or listening? Listening.

445. What will only happen to you once in this lifetime? Um...I have NO idea.

446. Know of any conspiracy theories you think might be credible? Not off the top of my head. I tend not to dwell on those.

447. What are the most beautiful words that have ever been spoken to you? A lot of stuff by Shakespeare. That man was a writing genius.

448. If it were legal would you own a human slave (race unimportant)? No way.

449. Have you ever read your own writing at a poetry reading? Nope. I suck at poetry.

450. What is one simple thing that gives you the happy shivers? Hearing one of my fave songs on the radio.
451. What do you do for exercise? I walk around campus and chase my nearly one-year-old around. :)

452. Would you rather have a strict teacher with a sense of humor or a lenient teacher that doesn't teach? A strict teacher with a sense of humor - the lenient one is just pointless.

453. If you ever have a baby what might you want to name it? Well, my first is named JJ...if we have a girl, I'm thinking Leilah LaVerne [middle name negotiable]. If we have another boy, I like Bryson.

454. If you won free tickets to a concert from a radio show and had to choose between Inxs, Poison, Blondie and Moby, which would you choose? Blondie, I guess...I wouldn't really choose any of these on my own since I don't listen to them normally.

455. Are you a good cook? Not really...getting there.

456. Do you prefer when things come with no assembly required, even if they are a bit more expensive? Yes. I hate assembling ish, and I suck at it.

457. Start a sentence with the words: what if things really don't work out...?

458. Are you more spontaneous and unpredictable or loyal and routine? Loyal and routine, definitely.

459. What is the highest number you can count to in your head? Like, a trillion.

460. How do you go about losing weight? I haven't really dieted. I sometimes watch what I eat, but what normally happens is I eat so crappily during the fall travel season that my stomach becomes out of whack and I don't eat for two weeks.

461. Do you have street smarts? Eh...a little. I'm not dense, but I'm not entirely street savvy, either.

462. Do you have a lot of common sense? I try to have some...

463. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? Cherry pecans and cream from Braum's. Yum.

464. What's your favorite movie that involves dancing? Step Up 2 the Streets

465. Would you ever want to become a guest on a talk show? If yes what would the show's theme be? I would...and I'd model my show off of Ellen's. I love her show.

466. Do you like the way you look naked? Eh...getting used to it.

467. Have you ever dissected an animal? An earthworm...that's it. Don't know how I managed that.

468. Who do you know who is brilliant? My Kansas kids. Holy smokes.

469. Who do you know who is dull? Me. :P

470. Do you ever think about time travel? Of course. I would do it, too, if I could.

471. What is one interesting fact you know? My sister and I are 16 months, 3 weeks and 1 day apart in age.

472. Do you talk to yourself? All the time, especially when I'm really thinking about something.

Do you talk to your pets? All the time. My dogs are like humans.

473. Do you believe that humankind has a future in space (will we live there some day)? I do...just don't know when.

474. Would you rather wear clothes that you don’t mind getting dirty or more delicate outfits? More delicate outfits.

475. How do you 'live life to the fullest'? I really don't right now...just trying to take it one day at a time.

476. Are you sloppy or a neat freak? Kinda both. During the night, I get super sloppy. But I always clean up afterwards.

477. Would you rather have a trunk full of nickels or half a trunk full of dimes? Trunk full of nickels please.

478. What is the worst mistake you've ever made? We won't go there.

479. Are you in good health? For the most part...exhausted, but that's it.

480. Are you patriotic? Yes yes.

Let's play fact or crap.

Is it a fact? Or is it crap?

481. The greenhouse effect is bad for your health. Fact.

482. There are about as many molecules of air in one breath as there are hairs on your head. Crap.

483. The Miss America pageant started out as a contest in which people decorated wheel chairs and one chair was judged the prettiest. Crap.

484. To remove a tattoo a physician can place a small balloon under the skin, which is inflated so that the tattooed skin gradually stretches. Then they cut the stretched skin away. Fact.

485. Cock fighting is a sexual sport. Crap [depends on who you ask though...].

486. It is the warmest time of the day during the hour that the sun is the highest in the sky. Fact.

487. Certain scientists specialize in studying cow farts. Crap.

488. The brilliant colors (reds, oranges, yellows) across the sky that we get from sunsets are caused mainly by pollution. Crap.

489. In Grimm's original fairy tale, Rapunzel is pregnant. Crap.

490. Dracula was the first movie about a vampire. Fact.

491. The inventors of Corn Flakes, the Kellogg brothers, ran a school for delinquent youth. Fact.

492. "Kemo Sabe" means "soggy shrub" in Navajo. Crap.

493. Sir Thomas Crapper invented the toilet. Crap.

494. The Earl of Sandwich invented the Sandwich. fact.

495. Some Chinese alchemists were trying to invent an immortality medicine and accidentally invented gunpowder instead. Fact.

496. The human body is made of about 99% water. Crap.

497. Bubble gum contains rubber. Fact.

498 This survey to the zero power = 0. Fact.

499. Most lipstick contains fish scales. Fact.

500. There are 86401 seconds in day. Crap.

End of fact or crap


More of #92: 5000-question survey

And here's more of that survey!

151. What is louder and more annoying: 200 adults talking or one four-year-old screaming? One four-year-old screaming. Hands down.
152. Do you believe the stories about planes, boats and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda triangle? I do...and will always find that weird.
153. Who are you the most jealous of? No one...I try not to be jealous of people.
154. What is the happiest way you can start your day? Seeing my baby boy pop his head up out of his crib and smile at me. Perfect beginning.
155. Do you ever have moments where you feel like everything is all right in the world? Yes. I do. :)
156. Who thinks that you are offensive? Probably a lot of people. Like they matter.
157. If you had to teach a class in something, what would you be able to teach people? Proper grammar - apparently, that's lacking in today's society.
158. Have you ever had a spiritual experience (an experience that cannot be explained by science)? Once or twice.
159. Do you believe that this experience was truly mystical or do you think there is some scientific explanation for it, only you don't know what it is? Truly mystical. I believe that not everything can be explained by science.
160. Do you get offended easily? Some days, yeah.
161. Would you still love and stay with your signifigant other if he or she had to have a breast or testicle removed? Of course. That stuff wouldn't matter to me...because if my husband lost a testicle, it was more than likely because of something bigger that could've killed him. And I wouldn't want to lose him.
162. Do you believe in fate or free will? I strongly believe in fate.
163. Do you believe that only boring people get bored? Psht. No. I don't think I'm boring, and I get bored a lot.
164. Can life change or are we all stuck in vain? Life can change. Definitely.
165. What changes are you afraid of? Oh gosh...I'm afraid of change period. I don't deal with change very well at first.
166. Are you a day person or nocturnal? Nocturnal...hence the reason I'm doing this portion of the survey at 2 a.m.
167. What one CD could you listen to for an entire week (no mixed CD’s, it must be an album)? Justin Timberlake's "FutureSex/LoveSound." One of my fave albums ever.
168. Which is worse, working in retail, food service, or an office? Food service. People seem to be so much more disrespectful to those people, and I wouldn't want to do it.
169. What's the coolest job you ever had? My job now - as an admissions counselor. I love it.
170. What is one central idea that your thoughts seem to come back to? I am SO not saying...
171. Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress? Of course. Can I act? Of course not.
172. If you had the power to control one person and make this person do anything you wanted for a whole day, who would you pick and what would they do? I can't say the person I'd really want to control, because I would get in SO much trouble. I'd probably pick my husband and make him make his mind up about some things.
173. What star sign are you and what is your sign like? I'm an Aries - natural leader, stubborn, passionate and sexy. That's me. :)
174. Did the Blair Witch Project scare you? I've never seen it, to be quite honest. Ha.
175. Are you in constant fear of death? In the back of my mind, yes. I'm always slightly afraid of dying.
176. Does fear of death keep you from building a life? Nope. It makes me cautious though.
177. Do you like all your movies to be in wide-screen? Nope...full please.
178. Are you a fan of any comic books? Not really. Never read them.
179. At what age did you attend your first funeral? I was like, 10...that was when my dad's stepdad died.
180. What do you smell like (lotion, cologne, sweat)? Remnants of my sister's perfume that I stole. :P
181. What are your greatest sources for wisdom? My mom, sister and best friend. They're awesome.
182. When you were little, where did your parents tell you babies come from? Oh gosh...they just said Heaven. It wasn't until I was like, 14 that I figured out the real place.
183. What is your favorite band? *N Sync. I don't care if they've been split forever. I still love them and hope for a reunion one day.
184. What's the best cheesy 80's song? "Pour Some Sugar on Me." :P
185. What's the best kind of movie to see on a date? Romantic comedy. I don't care if my date doesn't like it - they're the perfect cuddle movie.
186. Do you like to sit in the front, middle or back of the Movie Theater? The middle. The best spot to catch a movie.
187. Have you ever been inside an abandoned building? Um...not that I can remember off the top of my head, no.
188. Under what circumstances would you agree to work for free? I'd work for free for a good cause...like, if my wages were going to be donated to charity or some major cause, I'd do it. And if it was something I was doing for the greater good.
189. Candles or strobe lights? Candles please. Strobe lights give me a headache.
190. Do you think the Lord of the Rings movies are true to the books or did Hollywood change the story too much? Of course they were changed...but not as much as I thought they would be [and as other movies-based-on-books have been changed].
191. When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat? Potential threat, to be quite honest. That's bad of me though.
192. Is it natural for human beings to fear and distrust each other, or is it cultural? I think it's a little bit of both. Darwin didn't figure out that only the strong survive for nothing. But I think culture has made us all a little wary of one another, too.
193. What do you really want to buy? A pair of new boots.
194. You have to choose. Would you be happier marrying someone rich for their money or living in the streets and subway tunnels with someone you love? Love. Hands down. I've been in miserable relationships, and I couldn't do that for the rest of my life.
195. If someone wanted to understand you what book could they read that would help? Oh my gosh. I don't know! There's not a book out there that could describe me...
196. Do you think it’s odd that Americans have freedom of religion and yet call themselves 'one nation under god'? I've never really thought about it. I think it's great we have freedom of religion though.
197. In what sense are you a minority? I'm half Hawaiian, half black and a female. Enough said.
198. Are you anti social? Hecks no. I love being social.
199. Do you photograph well? I do now...wasn't always that way.
200. Do you think that human beings would survivor through a nuclear winter? Psht. I don't know...probably not.
201. Put these creatures in order from what you would least like to be reincarnated as (1), to what you would most like to be reincarnated as (10) assuming reincarnation ended up existing AND you were given a choice.

caterpillar, house dog, wild dog, vulture, male human, female human, oak tree, rock, manta ray, dolphin Female human, male human, dolphin, house dog, manta ray, caterpillar, wild dog, vulture, oak tree, rock

202. What do you feel unworthy of? Nothing, really. I feel like I've worked hard and earned everything I've gotten.

203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person? Something for humanity.

204. Which do you value more: science or intuition? Intuition. I feel that's done more for me than science.

205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first? My husband, hands down. I love my best friend, but I would want to make sure he's OK first.

206. Does the universe revolve around human beings? I don't think so. I hope not.

207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were? Yeah. No.

208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now? I don't have one...I'm not a big fan of poetry. Not since I had to analyze it in high school.

209. What is your favorite song from the 90's? There's not just one. There are too many!

210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be? E for Ebonie!

211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.? Not really...I do believe in ghosts and angels/spirits, but that's about it.

212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend? If that person is cool and fits my personality, I would want to be friends. But people don't become friends automatically with me...it takes a little bit.

213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun? No. That's horrible.

214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth? Um...no.

215. What is your favorite line from a movie? "Call tha PoPo ho!" Baha.

216. What's your favorite video game? Wii Sports Resort. That's about as hardcore as it gets.

217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours? I take my sister's stuff all the time. :P

218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you? "I don't know." I hate that answer.

219. You allow strangers to read your diary, blog, and/or myspace, but would you let your parents read it? I don't put anything on there that I would want to hide from them...it would just be weird, but I'd let them read it.

220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower? Hot, steamy bath. Yay.

221. Are you allergic to anything? Not that I know of.

222. What is your favorite Terminator movie? I don't have one. I haven't even watched a whole Terminator movie.

223. What is your favorite fast food? Chicken McNuggets from McDonald's. Yum.

224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again? Betray me.

225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed? Yeah. No.

226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally? YES.

227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend? Because they're greedy, and money rules the world, unfortunately.

228. Have you ever won a carnival fish? Nope.

229. Did it live more than a week? Seea bove.

230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have? British, especially on a guy. Oh buddy.

231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read? My biology chapters in college. Every time I had to read them, I wanted to throw myself off a cliff.

232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens? Buttons please.

233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series? No way - one's about wizards, and another's about a mix of mythical creatures. I don't find many similarities between the two.

234. Would you consider yourself to be naive? Ha. Yeah.

235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail? I don't know...

236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it? $100 bill - and there'd better be a lot in there.

237. Would you ever wear real fur? Nope.

238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks? Neither - both give me the willies. I HATE SPIDERS.

239. What are your feelings about police officers? They make me nervous, and the one encounter I had with one made me angry. I think most of them are smug and think they rule the world, and that annoys me.

240. what is your favorite line from a song? Don't really have one...

241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money? It is for me!

242. Do you like the band Front 242 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Front_242)? Never heard of them...

243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction? Honestly? Money.

244. What's your middle name? Kalaiwale. Try pronouncing that one.

245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars? Skydive. That's it.

246. Are you good, evil or neutral? A little bit of good and evil. :)

247. Should ebonics (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ebonics) be considered a language? NO. Bad idea. It's bad enough it's used ALL  the time...if America ever made it an official language, I'd consider leaving.

248. What color is your bedroom? Cream in Stillwater; lavendar in Lawton.

What color would you like it to be? I would love my room at home to be a deeper, richer color. Same here.

249. When are you planning to move to a new home? Psht - no idea. Maybe when Joe goes into the Air Force and we get our first base...

250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be? Too much - especially since I have a closet full of clothes and shoes, as well as a lot of JJ's stuff.
251. Do you blow your nose in public? I have before. I try not to, though...I know that grosses people out, especially during flu season.

252. Do you want to follow in your parent's footsteps? Kinda. I want to be as successful and hardworking as them...

253. What is the coolest web site you know of? ESPN.com. :)

254. Which cartoon would you most like to see turned into a movie? Not really sure...most of them have been turned into movies already.

255. Of the following, which word best describes you: enthusiastic, fair minded, generous, helpful: Generous.

256. Can you eat with chopsticks? Yes. Do I do that often? No way.

257. Could you tell real money from counterfeit? Psht. Nope.

258. What do you think about school uniforms? I think they're a good idea and should be enforced in more areas. I wish my high school had uniforms; make it super easy to decide what to wear everyday.

259. What ancient civilization would you most like to visit? Early days of Rome.

260. What would make a great new Crayola color? Anything with sparkles in it. Big fan of sparkles.

261. If an art project is created with the intent of getting rich and famous, does that cast doubt over its significance as a work of art? Kinda, yeah. I wouldn't have as much respect for it as a piece of art.

262. If you became president, whom would you invite to sing at your inauguration? Justin Timberlake. Hee.

263. Who is the greatest philosopher of your country? I don't know...anyone wanna tell me?

264. If all the nations in the world are in debt, where did all the money go? War and the government. That's all I'm gonna say.

265. Is it as easy to make you happy now as it was when you were a child? I think it's easier to make me happy now. I find pleasure in the little things in life now; when I was younger, it was hard to impress me or make me happy.

266. Who knows more...you, or your parents? My parents, hands down. I won't admit that often, but it's tru.

267. What instrument would you like to be famous for playing? Violin. I miss playing.

268. Children fill its lungs completely with air. Adults breathe in a more shallow way, not filling their lungs completely. Why the change? Because we don't need as much oxygen?

269. Would you have sex with a stranger for one million dollars? Possibly...

270. Are you completely in control of your body? Not all the time.

Are you completely in control of your mind? Not all the time. :P

271. Which is more romantic: an expensive, glittering bouquet OR flowers that were hand picked as they grew beside the parkway? Handpicked flowers. I think that's super romantic.

272. Do you know yourself well enough to understand why you feel the way you do? I do...for the most part. I throw my own self for a loop sometimes.

273. Which do you do more often: let movies, songs and books put your feelings into words for you or put your feelings into words by yourself? Put feelings into words myself.

274. Do you believe celebrities when they are endorsing a product? Psht. No. I always think they do it to make a quick buck.

275. What kind of movies do you wish were made more often? Romantic comedies or movies based off of real stories.

276. Does fashion matter to you? Not really. I like to look good, but I don't have to follow what fashion says looks good.

277. Should politicians be held to the same legal standards as everyone else? YES.

278. What do you get in trouble for the most? Talking too much or being on the computer too much. :P

279. Should parents spank their kids? Yes. If your kid is bad, he or she needs to be put in his or her place. If that means spanking, do it. There's a difference between beating and spanking, btw.

280. What is your worst daily habit? Sleeping in. :P

281. If you had your choice which one TV show would you have canceled? Mercy.

282. Do you like the taste of sweet or salt? Salt. Yum.

283. Are you very precise about what words you use to describe your feelings and thoughts? I try to be, but it doesn't work all the time.

284. What do you feel the most guilty about? I am NOT saying.

285. Do you meditate? Nope. I should though.

286. Can dreams be visions, or do you feel they are always random images? Dreams can be visions - mine have been at times.

287. Do you try to write/say what you are feeling in a true and simple way? I try to say it in a simple way...but when I write, I get it all out and am not that true and simple.

288. The thief _______ that everyone steals. What verb would you fill in the blank with? Runs...?

289. What's the most incredible experience you ever had? Riding the Manta at Sea World Orlando. That was so amazing.

290. Are you ever afraid to write/say/think how you feel? A lot of times, yeah.

291. Do you write/say/think it anyway or become intimidated and try to avoid it? I think it...but I may not say or write it.

292. What is one thing you can't do? Sing. :P

293. Do you like movies starring Charleton Heston (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charleton_Heston)? Some of them.

294. Are you gentle? I try to be, but I'm rough around the edges.

295. When do you feel the most raw and vulnerable? After a good cry.

296. Are you trying to find yourself? Always.

297. Where are you looking? Everywhere. :)

298. Are you sometimes afraid of being honest because you are afraid of hurting people's feelings? Yes. But most times, I'm honest anyway...just not a bitch about it.

299. What would make you a stronger person? I don't know...I'm pretty strong already. I think marrying someone going into the Air Force and watching him go to war would make me stronger.

300. What book would you like to read sometime soon? The last Twilight book - Breaking Dawn.
301. List 5 things you have not experienced that you would like to experience before you die.

A Go on a hot air balloon ride

B Visit England

C Go to NYC on New Year's Eve

D Go to Vegas on New Year's Eve

E Go on a cruise

302. Will you try to accomplish any of these things within the next year? Probably not within the next year, no.

303. What do you feel controlled by? A lot of things...and people.

304. If Jesus appeared to you and told you that the moon was made of green cheese would you believe him? Of course. It's Jesus!

305. What is one thing you are sure of? That things are never as bad as they seem.

306. At what part of the day do you feel the most alert? Usually mid-morning.
307. Have you ever played in a band? Nope. Well, elementary band...

308. Have you ever stared into the ocean thinking 'early creatures crawled outta that'? Nope.

309. If not, what do you think of when you are staring into the ocean? I don't really think...I just enjoy.

310. Do you like the mental challenge of chess or other games? Not really...give me a headache.

311. Do you ever think of where your atoms were before they were in you? Yes...and that gives me a headache, too.

312. Do you ever think about where your atoms will go after they have been in you? Sometimes.

313. If you didn't know that people couldn't fly do you think that you could? Psht. No. Don't have that kind of willpower.

314. Are you someone that others call when they're having a problem and want to talk about it? Yes. It's cool, but sometimes...

315. When it comes to literature, do you see beyond the writing and into the meaning intended by the author? I try to. Thanks AP English for all that ish.

316. Is there anything you can take apart completely, and then put back together, and have no left over parts? Maybe a pen...

317. What are your feelings about the death penalty? I don't think every major situation requires it, but I'm not opposed to it. Someone who had the audacity to take someone else's life should be given that option.

318. If there was a god and you could ask him/her one question what would it be? Why?

319. Do you believe that life will be found on other planets? YES. I honestly hope life is found on other planets, because there has GOT to be a smarter race out there.

320. What is something worth suffering for? My son.

321. If you could put an extra eye on your body anywhere you wanted, where would you put it? Behind my head.

322. Are you in touch with the earth and nature? Some days...

323. Would you rather live simply or extravagently? Simply.

324. Have you ever been camping? Once. Not a big fan.

325. Is your heart open when you meet someone new? Yes. It is.

326. Are you able to have conversations with and become friends with people who are not like you and are interested in different things than you are? Yup. I'm a pretty open, social person.

327. Are strangers more beautiful or frightening to you? Frightening at first.

328. What stops you from doing everything you want to do? A lot of things...life, how what I do affects others, my family, my job...

329. Can you think of three adjective that do not apply to you at all? Quiet, reserved, shy.

330. How do you feel about Jeremy Jaynes, who got a nine year prison sentence for spamming people with junk email (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeremy_Jaynes)? That's a little extreme...

331. Do you know who the current premier of China is? Psht. No.

332. Are you very active? Not as active as I should be.

333. Is there a city that reminds you of the landscape of your brain? Nope.

334. Have you ever loved someone who has loved you back? Yes yes.

335. Is it really being 'in love with' someone if the other person doesn't love you? I think it is. You can love someone, even if the other person doesn't feel the same way.

336. Do you believe that there is someone perfect for everyone or that people just fall in love with who ever they are with at the time? I think there is a soul mate for everyone, but you may not find that person.

337. Do you know secret things? Not really.

338. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have? Ha. Yes.

339. How do you overcome your fears? I just dive in. Try not to think about it.

340. What can you do better than anyone you know? Sleep. :P

341. Would you benefit from a wilder existence? I have this year...

342. Does it seem to you like the range of socially acceptable behavior is getting smaller or larger? Larger. That bugs me.

343. Have you ever fired a gun? A water gun.

344. Are people becoming more afraid of each other? I think they're becoming more wary...maybe not afraid. Unless you're from the Middle East...then people are becoming more afraid of you.

345. If you had to choose the percentage of freedom vs. safety what ratio would you decide on (ex: 100% free 0% safe)? Split in half.

346. Does safety stifle you? It can...but I'm not stifled by it yet.

347. Who or what needs to be stopped? Too many people and too many things.

348. Are human beings becoming more domesticated? Psht. Not really. It's almost impossible to be fully domesticated with the pace life moves at right now.

349. Do you follow the lives of the British Royal Family? Nope.

350. How did the death of Pope John Paul II (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pope_John_Paul_II) affect you? It didn't really affect me...I was sad though.


No. 91 started: 5000-question survey

I don't have much of an update, but I figured I'd better start the 5000-question survey since I have no idea how long it'll take me to answer that many questions. :)

1. Who are you? Ebonie Kalaiwale Hill-Williamson
2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? I'm a wife, a mommy and proud Oklahoma State University graduate.
3. Who did you take this survey from (the entire survey is available here: http://www.myspace.com/5000_question_survey)? I saw it on several other 101 in 1001 lists and thought it'd be fun to do! Surely I can get this done in 2.5 years...
When you aren't filling out 5000 question surveys, what are you doing? Working, sleeping, playing with my baby boy, spending time with friends or family, traveling, shopping...
4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). I loved English - that was my favorite subject. I was decent at math, but I hated it - especially calculus. I also loved American History, especially in college.
5. What is your biggest goal for this year? Make JJ's first birthday as memorable as possible.
6. Where do you want to be in 5 years? I want to be the mommy to another little one, settled somewhere with my husband and happy. I'd love to be close to Oklahoma, but don't know if that'll happen.
7. What stage of life are you in right now? I'm in family mode. I've been married for almost eight months, have an almost one-year-old and have been working full time for more than a year now [and graduated from college 18 months ago].
8. Are you more child-like or childish? I'd say childish. :P
9. What is the last thing you said out loud? NO idea...it's been awhile since I've talked out loud since everyone else but me is sleeping.
10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? Black Eyed Peas' "Meet Me Halfway."
11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? Nope.
12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? Life just gets better. There are always bad days mixed in, but it tends to get better.
13. Does time really heal all wounds? Ya know...it does. It may take forever, but it does.
14. How do you handle a rainy day? I typically stay in and sleep. :)
15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Losing luggage. At least I can replace the lights if I can't get them untangled...luggage is usually harder to replace.
16. How is your relationship with your parents? I'm very close to both of them, but I'm a little closer to my mom.
Will you miss them when they are gone? Most definitely. It'll be very hard for me to lose them.
17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? More than people give me credit for...I'm not dense.
18. What is the truest thing that you know? That I'm really, really blessed.
19. What did you want to be when you grew up? A teacher or a doctor. Teacher thing could still pan out; doctor thing died in college.
20. Have you ever been given a second chance? Yes - more than once.
21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? More of a giver. Annoying sometimes.
22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? I try to do that as much as possible.
23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? Recovering from having my son. The labor and delivery part weren't that bad; getting through the recovery stuff was bad.
24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? When J and I were just dating, he broke up with me for almost three months. Never want to feel that way again.
25. Who have you hugged today? No one yet!
26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? Nothing yet...still very early in the day!
27. Do you have a lot to learn? OH yeah. Learn something new everyday.
28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?
A Play basketball [and actually play/be able to shoot]
B Sing well
C Learn Spanish fluently
29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? What other people say, definitely.
30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Honesty, respect, love, communication and mutual agreement.
31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?
A Visit every state in the country
B Go on a hot air balloon ride
C Watch my grandchildren grow up
32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?
A Eating bugs
B Watching my children die
C Jumping out of a plane
33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause? I really believe in cancer research...after losing my FIL to it in 2007, I just know there's a cure out there.
34. What does each decade make you think of:
The 19..
20's: Flappers.
30's: Great Depression.
40's: WWII.
50's: The American Dream.
60's: Hippies.
70's: Jimi Hendrix.
80's: Awesome movies.
90's: Awesome cartoons.
2000 (so far): Too much to put down...I was in high school and college during this decade!
2010's: Nada yet!
35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why? The 2000s...I pretty much grew up during this decade and have so many fond memories. This is definitely the decade I remember the most.
36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? Oh my gosh...I don't know! There are too many! I guess The Beatles' "I Wanna Hold Your Hand".
37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country? I live in the United States of America, where our president is Mr. Barack Obama. Very proud to be a citizen of this nation with a president like Mr. Obama.
If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be? Thank you.
38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night? ESPN!
39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why? Um...I don't know. I'll have to think about this one.
40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout? Nope. Had a desire to be for a little bit, but then we moved to Oklahoma.
41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat? Fly please.
42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night? Something about particles and sun and blah blah blah. Personally, I think it's blue during the day because blue is such an awesome color, and it's black at night so people can get some rest.
43. What does your name mean? No idea, really. I should look into that...
44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space? Outer space. That would be SO cool.
45. Word association
What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:
Air: Jordan.
Meat: Loaf.
Different: Places.
Pink: Love the color.
Deserve: A raise.
White: Stripes.
Elvis: Still alive.
Magic: Kingdom!
Heart: Very fragile. Don't break it.
Clash: What could happen soon in my life if things don't settle down.
Pulp: Fiction.
46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be? My mom's mom. I want to see what she was like and just how much alike she and my mom are; apparently, my mom looks almost exactly like her.
47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive? Justin Timberlake. :)
48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday? Probably the first Harry Potter. I can quote that thing.
49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do? Cell phone, fully charged MP3 player, laptop, Twilight series, enough food for the week, extra clothes, a functioning toilet...
50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved? Nope. Life is still young though.
51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...
Fruitgoogle: What happens when you eat fruit and try to Google at the same time.
Ambytime: The time you check out of the world every single day. Ambytime can last as long as you want it to...as long as you're not checked into your earthly surroundings!
Armcactus:  Condition in which someone has really hairy, prickly arms.
52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands? I made this awesome jewelry pot for my mom in 1st grade. She used that thing forever.
53. What was your favorite toy as a child? I loved flash cards. I was such a nerd.
54. How many TV’s are in your house? I have one in my apartment, and we have three in my parents' house. Only really use two though.
55. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Walk. I love going for walks.
56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow? Peace.
57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? A LOT. It's weird.
58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? Nope, but I'd like to go.
59. What is your idea of paradise? Hawaii. That's where my mom's from. :)
60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like? Yes...I believe in the God that my religion has told me about.
61. Do you believe in Hell? I do...which is something that doesn't mesh with my religion.
62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't? Gone to Hawaii. I lived there for six years.
63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done? Oh gosh...I don't know...
64. Are you a patient person? Nope. I try very hard to be patient, but it doesn't always work.
65. What holiday should exist but doesn't? The "Ebonie is Awesome and Is Giving Everyone a Day Off" holiday.
66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does? I think Labor Day is pointless. Don't get me wrong - I love having the day off. Still trying to figure out what its purpose is though.
67. What's the best joke you ever heard? Too many to put down - and I'm that person who remembers the joke and can laugh at it, but I can't get it right to save my life.
68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? DisneyLand. I wish I could remember more than I do, but I know it was awesome.
69. Is your hair natural or dyed? All natural baby. Always has been.
70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front? I've got a couple of pretty deep ones...but for the most part, I'm an open book
71. What is under your bed right now? At my house? Some board games, and I think my yearbooks are under there...in Stillwater, must dust bunnies.
72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home? I'd want to go home. There's no place like home, right?
73. If you drive do you frequently speed? I typically go at least five over...it's very rare that I go the actual posted speed limit.
74. What is the world's best song to dance to? I have to name just one?! I would say "Let Me Clear My Throat." That's always fun to dance to in the club.
75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone? "Use Somebody" by Kings of Leon. :)
76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Disney please.
77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo? Penguins! I think they're so cute!
78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic? Yes. I'm a hopeless romantic.
79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off? I think we'd all fall over and then float away.
80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it? Sleep. I can't make it through a day without sleeping.
81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick? Oh gosh...the right to be stupid.
82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? Equator. I'd rather be hot and figure out how to cool down than cold and figure out how to get warm - I'm not game on trying to keep myself from freezing to death.
83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? Watching television. I can't live without music, but I can go without TV.
84. What do you think makes someone a hero? Compassion, sacrifice and respect.
85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in? Rugrats. :)
86. Name one thing that turns your stomach: Needles. They make me want to vomit when I see them and know they're meant for me.
87. What was the last thing you paid for? Gas. About to be food - gotta go shopping.
88. Are you a coupon clipper? Not really...need to be though.
89. Get anything good in the mail recently? Um...not really. Not yet, at least - waiting for books and JJ's wagon for his birthday to come in.
90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling? Dancing!
91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...
Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends? I think so. Nothing's changed physically, the person has all the memories...now, if the person's mannerisms change, that's a whole different story.
92. What insects are you afraid of? Everything. Seriously.
93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? "Stick that in your juice box and suck it."
94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? Probably random Halloween costumes; I'm not big on being eccentric with my clothes.
95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? Fried chicken. Yum.
96. What are your parents interested in? Their grandbaby, pretty much. :P
97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet? My dad's caught a tarantula before and kept it as a pet. It had to stay outside, and I hated it.
Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal? Yeah. No.
98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans? Plans.
99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest? At night. I am such a night owl.
100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring? Cell phone, blanket and water. And be sure to eat a lot of food before I go. :P
101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically? It's so hard to describe...you can't stop smiling. You feel light and like nothing can spoil it. It's just so hard to put into words what that type of feeling feels like...
102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most.
A My son, JJ
B My husband, Joe
C My sister, Alicia
D My mom and dad
E My doggies
103. How many movies have you gone to see this month? None. I rarely go to the movies. I may go tonight though.
104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for? I'd wish for JJ to grow up and be a healthy, strong man; for my sister to find eternal happiness; and for my parents to live a long, fulfilling life.
105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense? I scream, throw things, cry...or I just listen to music REALLY loud and go for a drive.
106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car? Millions upon millions of dollars.
107. Have you ever killed an animal? Nope.
108. Have you ever lost someone close to you? Yes - my father-in-law in 2007. He wasn't my FIL then, but we were close. I miss him everyday.
109. What do you think of cloning? I'm for it...but my brain always goes to those sci-fi movies where clones take over the world, and I get nervous.
110. Do you read or watch TV more often? Watch TV...I just now started getting back into reading.
111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety? I don't know...I am if it guarantees that we'll all be safer.
112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive? I'd kill his ass slowly. Very, very slowly.
113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body? Nope.
114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV? Both, several times.
115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes? I won postcards once...
116. Have you ever won a contest or competition? Nope. Well, I've won an academic team competition as a part of a team, and orchestra contests as part of a whole group, but that's it.
117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross (check out this link if you don't know who he is. Also please note me if you notice the link is broken) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bob_Ross_(painter)? Yeah. No.
118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living? No idea what my great-grandparents did...my mom's dad doesn't work, and my mom's stepmom works for a catering company in Maui.
119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history? I'm sure, especially since my mom's Hawaiian and dad's black. Haven't taken the time to investigate though.
120. Is there anyone you trust completely? Yes - my sister, best friend and Joe.
121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye? Yup. Didn't get a chance to say goodbye to Jonas and FIL.
122. How do you feel about women in politics? Girl power! As long as they're competent and intelligent, I'm totally fine with it.
123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool? Indoor Jacuzzi. I could use it whenever I wanted.
124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own? I love American Colonial history...I could read and research it for days. I also love learning about new things, especially sports - I want to learn more about football.
125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent? Yes. I'm not very good at the common sense thing though.
126. Would you consider yourself to be wise? For the most part.
127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance? Neither. Be fun though. :p
128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person? Yes - for a few brief seconds.
129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring? Nope.
130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you? I couldn't live with that burden. No.
131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics? Side note: I did NOT know these beforehand. Thanks Google!
A: Nothing to kill or die for...And no religion too/Imagine all the people/Living life in peace...
B: Late comings with the late comin' stretcher...That's a body bag in disguise y'all betcha/I call 'em body snatchers quick they come to fetch ya?/With an autopsy ambulance just to dissect ya
C: I could make a film and make you my star...You'd be a natural/The way you are/I would like you on /A long black leash/I would parade you/Down the high street
132. Were you ever with someone while they died? Nope.
133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star? World political leader. I'd want to be a part of the type of change they can make.
134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? To Joe, yeah. LONG time ago.
135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail? Yup.
136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now? Nope...but I'm going to see Gabriel Iglesias in February! Yay!
137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you've ever seen? Lion King.
138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving? I always listen to JT and my random smattering of hip hop, R&B and rap people.
139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished? I don't know...honestly. I don't. I'd be super impressed if someone found a cure for cancer, AIDS or diabetes...
140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you? Be themselves and treat me right. Those two are hot.
141. About how many emails do you get a day? Way too many. Holy cow.
How many of those emails are junk mail? Not too many...a handful.
How many of them are forwards? Even less - I probably get one forward a week.
142. What is your favorite thing to do online besides filling out surveys? Shopping. :)
143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobain) killed himself or was it a conspiracy?  I think he killed himself.
144. Have you ever thought about hitchhiking across the country? I could NEVER do it. Creepy.
145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip? I couldn't ever do this type of trip because I have too much stuff. I guess I'd bring my wallet, clothes, blanket, shoes...I'd need a suitcase for this trip.
146. Of the following, which word best describes you: accurate, bold, charming, dependable: I would say dependable.
147. If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down and get married? If you are married, how old were you at the time? I was 22 when I got married...been married for almost eight months now.
148. Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time you will ever see them? I do...I hate that thought, but I have it a lot.
149. What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out? NEW MOON!
150. What is your quest? Don't have one. Want to give me one?


No. 19 and No. 42 started!

I finally started two other things on my list! No. 19 is to buy JJ 50 books...and I just got him five Dr. Seuss books for his birthday. He's got: The Cat in the Hat; Hop on Pop; ABC 123; and I think he got Green Eggs and Ham. I don't remember the fifth one...bagh.

I also started No. 42, which is to eat at 10 new restaurants. I ate a Crepe Myrtle today, which is this awesome restaurant on The Strip in Stillwater. I've been here more than five years, and I've NEVER eaten there...boo on me. I had the fried chicken strips with honey mustard sauce and seasoned curly fries, and I am SO stuffed. It was absolutely delicious! I heard they have awesome burgers, too, so I'm gonna have to go back and eat there again soon. Yum.

So Halloween has come and gone, and I had a pretty awesome costume this year:

I was a sexified Hermione Granger for Halloween. The ref costume came in Friday night at like, 6:30, but it didn't fit right. So I went to the party store and bought this one - and it fit perfectly. Add the cape, the wand, the glasses and my boots, and it was perfect. I know people thought it was skanky, but I loved it. I'm finally getting comfortable with my body again after having JJ, and I showed it off just a little bit. After the dismal loss to Texas [I'll rant about that later], I went out with my sister and two friends to the bars with my costume. The pic is of me and my buddy Jason before we headed out for the night. The bars were a little boring, but it's all good - I still loved my costume. :)

Today makes exactly one month until my little man turns a year old. Oh my goodness - where has the last year gone?! I keep thinking back to a year ago, when I was in my last month and so nervous and excited, and I wasn't sleeping or eating well, and I was so uncomfortable but so ready to meet him...and now, he's becoming a big boy and trying to walk [well, run, at least] and trying to say more words...it just blows my mind how fast this year flew. I think time flies faster after you have kids because you watch them grow up in front of your eyes. It's such a bittersweet thing for me. We started ordering Christmas and birthday presents, and I've got an idea for his birthday invitations that I'll figure out in my mind over the next couple of days.

Work's been crazy busy, as always, but I'm finally getting caught up with stuff. Got an event this weekend, two events next week and then an event next weekend, and I'm pretty much done with the semester. Thank goodness. I'm just hoping to make it to Christmas in one piece...we'll see how that goes.

That's all I've got for now; I'll be able to update more once I get my computer cord in. I've been putting off ordering it, but I've got to get it now - I'm sick of not having a computer at home [especially now that I have a fantasy basketball league and can't keep up with all the games]. Speaking of sports, my boss made a comment the other day that he's impressed that I'm so into sports. I'm not quite sure when my true obsession for sports began...probably when I came to college, since OSU is a Big 12 school and all...but it's gotten worse over the past four years. I know it drives my mom insane that I can sit there and watch SportsCenter for hours at a time, even though stuff doesn't change on it during that time. Hee.

Well, white cards call me. I'll update again soon!